It’s been a long time since I’ve been a regular blogger and much has changed in my life. Some of you may remember or have read my previous blog, Closer to Core ( www.closertocore.blogspot.com ) and many of you haven’t.
Writing has always been cathartic to me: a way to process whatever I’m going through as well as connect with others who have had similar experiences on this incredible journey called life. We are so much more connected and the same than we often realize, and I write to expose the vulnerabilities within myself in the hopes that someone else feels more understood and less alone.
I used to write about being a mom, nature, crafting, cooking and the insights into being me and who I got to be in the world. I’ve always enjoyed searching the depths of me to discover, more fully, who I am and why I’m here.
Three years ago, a lot things changed, pretty drastically, and I didn’t feel like I could write publicly about what I was dealing with. I was too angry, confused, hurt and didn’t want to negatively impact anyone else’s life by my words in the world, something of which I am always cognizant.
Let me be clear. This is about my journey, what I’m up to in the world, how I choose in the moments how to be. I am not here to talk for anyone else because that is not my place. We are each our own creators of our lives, first through language, and then through actions. And some of the most difficult experiences we as humans go through need to be talked about . Not to stay mired in the mess of them or make them into something they aren’t or live as a victim to them for the next several decades of our lives. But to deal with the impact, to process what the hell is happening and to create something new on the other side. To know we are not alone and that the human spirit is bigger than the circumstances.
This blog is about being raw and vulnerable. Authentic. Challenged and challenging. It’s about dealing with some of life’s messiest, most emotional situations and sharing about the good, the bad and the ugly of it all. It’s about the imperfections, the desire to get it right and look good and still messing up. It’s about being uncomfortable and sweaty and seen and out on the skinny branches of life. It’s about calling myself out on my own bullshit. And it’s about the pure joy and exhilaration, the moment to moment noticing of being ALIVE, the humbleness and gratitude for waking up each day into THIS existence.
I don’t know exactly what will show up here or who will join me. I do know that sharing me and my value with the world is important and necessary. I know that is true for each of us: to share our most authentic, most brilliant and fulfilled selves with the world. That is why we’re here.